I unearthed a letter from Stephanie of 2009. Written in blue paper and tucked among the letters I kept over the years, she asked the following questions:
Did you still look back and wish that things would be different? How is life for you now? Were you able to do what you wanted to do in your life?
Did I still wish that things would be different?
I’ve three kids, a home, and a daily serving of time to make the most out of my life.
I made mistakes. I lost so much. I’ve experienced a lot of physical and emotional pain and frustration. Countless times I’ve lost myself to the dark.
But, you know what? I managed to do things that Stephanie of 2009 never would have imagined I could do then.
I’m able to send two of my three kids to school, with the youngest prepping for his first school year. I started and maintained a tiny business for six months. I produced a series of stories about the creative life, and my very first fiction series on Wattpad.
So, no. I’ve stopped wishing for things to be different.
I taught myself to get up whenever something or someone pulls me down; despite all of the hardship, the small achievements and the good I’ve done make it all worth while.
Were you able to do what you wanted to do in your life?
I’d say yes and no.
I’ve achieved and lost, but in between are opportunities to keep on learning and to keep on trying.
The journey continues for me, and that’s what’s so exciting about it!
What about you? Were you able to do all that you’ve set out to do for 2019?
Are you a published author now? Are you traveling? Did you manage to get accepted into the workshops or publications you’ve always wanted to be a part of?
Whatever may be the outcome, I hope that you will always remember that it’s never too late, that nothing will happen if you don’t start, and you will always keep moving no matter how difficult things are going to be.
Fight the resistance. Fight the self-doubt. Fight the fear in the name of what you love and what you believe in.
At the end of the day, it’s in doing the things that matter the most to you that will determine if you’ve lived your day—and essentially your life—the way you envisioned it to be.
Follow your heart. Never give up on your dreams. Remember that you are loved.